So in less than an hour's time, 2006 will pass. How nostalgic. It's been one of the most hectic years I've had, worse than last year(in the heartbreaking department) and worse than the previous two(in the academic department). But nevertheless, much lessons learnt, new people to trust, new people to care, same people to hate. HAHA.


What a year. I have to say. take a deeep breath! There's the Inter-JC, the cast. HAHA. THE FANTABULOUS YEAR ONES. Applause for them please. They are wonderful and will always be. Of course academic! There's so much that's crammed into this miniscule grey matter that it seemed impossible to! Funny moments, laughable occassions. (: THE BIG A'S. Oh wow as if I could forget that. May be possibly the one that I fail. Haha! Great tutors delightful classmates (especially the five). A whole new love (say 'ooooh'). A first, greatest mistake (remember that confession in July?? LOL). Stupid dilemmas that actually isn't worth my effort to worry about. Ups and downs. Discoveries and secrets.

All in all, I have had a good and great year despite the many breakdowns (I sound like a machine) and the many times I need a mechanic to fix me. Hah! Persons with quirky characters who healed scars that defied the magic of Savlon. ((: Good year, really. I'm spending my new year with three people I love, what better way to start it?


Hmm. To have you here?

HAHAHA. Pigs will really fly and peacocks will swim. Ah well. A dream would not be called a dream if it comes true. How apt. No wonder those dreams kept plaguing me.


Good night all. Pray (: SALAM AIDIL ADHA. Nice mutton.

ofblack&white
11:03 PM

For quite a while, the Taiwan earthquake impede my internet connection. And this usually was accompanied by the torrents of curses and fumings. I really hate it to be so slow/always disconnected. Screw.


Past days had been horribly hectic and busy. Tight days. I went to watch Night at The Museum on Wednesday and was out practically the whole day please. Gotten my Maowang too ((: The dealer is nice. Reached home after dusk. Yesterday too. Had my first tuition session with Vincent. That also equals to me having to wake up early at getting to AMK by 1045 hours. Tired please. Went town the whole day, and stepped into homeship late-ish. My feet could have buckled down.


The insomnia plagued me again. My sleeping times stretched like elastic, 1 to 2 am? It's not a big deal to those out there who proudly claimed you sleep at 4 or 5 (for the sole reason of doing MATH HAHA). But unlike you owls, I have to be up by 7.


I went street today. My last. Haha it was really fun while it lasted. I never seen myself running this much LOL. Maybe cause of the experience after playing street?? LOL I finally knew how to be friends with the Wall. The Wall, he is your next best friend on court.


Anyway Haziq Sha Dzul was there also! The annoying small boys, and made new friends with Syidah, Syidah and Raudhah (two had the same name). (: ELF, ___ IS FLYING! ELF, ___ IS CLIMBING THE TREE. Got the elf into fits HAHA. Nevermind lah. For the fun of it. If I don't disturb you, who else will?


My aunt made me a guinea pig. Here's what she say, "Eh you know? Turnips will make your face whiter!" I was already mumbling that I've never dream of becoming Snow White but does she listen? NOO. She physically dragged me down to buy eggs, some bread and her shampoo. Absentminded me forgot my specs and since I've taken off my disposables, I was blind. Then she forced me into the shower with the new shampoo (she wants to see how nice the smell is) then asked me to don a hairband (something I NEVER do in public) and stuff my neck with tissues, and proceed on smearing my face with turnips. AH. The nerve. I was suppose to go either training at Venture Era or out with Zul. Did none and I died on the bed. Tired please.


Anyway New Year's coming. I went to the mosque just now and saw really really nice fat sheep. Aww. Oh ya. Resolutions? I'll do it on my private. In the meantime, I want to fall out. I want to make more money. And lastly, I want really want to let go and get over it.


Funny how everything seemed right one moment and not the next. ) :

ofblack&white
10:29 PM

				love, emo. to		time to be me		how's army?
				love, emo. to		time to be me		fun?
				love, emo. to		time to be me		seronok?
				love, emo. to		time to be me		mengghairahkan?
				time to be me to		love, emo.		can i be vulger, rude and crude with u?
				love, emo. to		time to be me		sure
				love, emo. to		time to be me		(:
				time to be me		love, emo.		suck my dick la fun

Something out of my chatlogs. HAMZ WAS BACK FOR THE WEEKEND AND YESTERDAY. How could I forget to mention haha. Anyway he's back Tekong. And that's him on NS life. Have to wake up at 5. Since it's raining like crap, he has to use an undergarment for 3 days. And a PT shirt for 5.

...

HOW CAN HE TELL ME THESE THINGS.
Haha. I feel sad for him but it's ok. Youu can do it!

Ok just something random I have to put up (:

ofblack&white
11:03 PM

For the first time in my eighteen years (few months) existence I was very intimidated and overwhelmed by the numerous suit-clad figures that whizzed by around me.

Stupid Kev, never told me what to expect. Haha I did the classic doubletake when he met me in striped long sleeve (complete with cufflinks please) black pants and smart shoes. Luckily my fears of being taken to a first-class brothel was not met. I was quite glad I didn't ask my poor jobless with me or else she'll get freaked out too. Anyway I don't know all the bull about network marketing. But I'll give it a try, though the Mom was having doubts about it (she thought they were out to cheat me of my money, whatever's left of it). Oh well, parents.



It' a wonderful rainy day spent mostly indoors. But I enjoyed the moments out in the rain. You know, inwardly wondering why people open up their umbrellas, when what you should be doing is skip on puddles and marvel at the glory of heaven's tears.


Mayyee just called and it's nice to talk! ((: How to not feel weird when you've been talking to the person every single schoolday of jc life (save the times when unspokens lingered) and suddenly not hear them squeak? HAHA. Thank Alexander Graham Bell for phones. I want Naz to be home FASTER. maybe can meet the two of them together ((:


I felt slightly tired. Zul did came over yesterday for my bro's party thing and feels great to talk to old acquaintances too. (: Remember to return the book and meet up!


Life's great when there's people who you cared for; Life's greater when there's the rain that washes our sin away everyday.
Life's the best when there's coffee to tend to with the symphony of winds and percs. I WANT MY FRAPS AND LATTES.

Love you, good night!

ofblack&white
10:25 PM

i think, deep down, that my brother's a fag that ought to be shot. No, seriously.



Anyway I came to the decision to stay away. I told you didn't I? I'm sure someone wouldn't be entirely pleased if I was around to muck about and laugh. Oh well. It can't really be helped, and I knew this for quite sometime (took the elf long to realise HAHA). If there IS on Wednesday, then I think it'll be the last session for me. Me and you happened to share a common hate towards someone!

It wouldn't be long. Haha, I never liked how she acts. It reminds me painfully of my egoistic dad and don't worry elf I'll make sure you'll still meet me to treat me Caramel Frap (I have this annoying urge to have it =.-). 7$ with coffee jelly thank you! I sound as if I'm going to die and never return. But probably'll be that to the rest, except for the B.O.S


Hurr. Not exactly marvelous a day for me. I want out, and I want to stay over elsewhere. Make sure I'll scramble out of this house by 12, and be home the next evening.


What a thought to dwell on. Ah well, the Entry of Whatever Beings That Annoy.

ofblack&white
5:14 PM

Pitter patter, splash splash, whoooo~

That's mainly the sounds I heard today, for it rained throughout. Sigh. I kind of regret not going for the YJ concert with Kian Hong yesterday. =.-


I went for Nadh's grandad funeral today, and Death had its effects on me. I imagined the day when it is my loved ones' faces that I see wrapped, unnaturally still on the floor. I blinked back my tears. I imagined if I am the one there, would they visit and cry, or silently be joyous in heart. Would YOU come? Unanswered questions I know.



It's chilly, the wind nipped my bones. I slept the day away, dreamt of funny moments, groaned as I awake. I tell you, these afternoon spells gave me the most wicked headaches. I love this kind of days you know, where I can huddle on my computer seat or the bed with a good book for company and a cup of nice steaming oats or Nestum. Haha a warm garlic bread to accentuate. Love rainy days (when you stay home that is).


Tomorrow is a busy day, for thirty of my brother's friends coming down for his birthday (twenty going two; NOT acting his age at all please). I can't date Naz out again since she's on holiday (probably running away since the demand for bak kut teh is increasing...). ANYWAY MAYYEE, next two weeks free? Since the Pig and I are planning for sleepover for cooking n0obs. ((:


I yearn, oh so yearn, for a caramel or mocha frap with coffee jelly. WHEN!

ofblack&white
5:41 PM

Yes! I spent the day the way I wanted.

In the room.


LOL mindlessly friendster-ing (how uncool) yahoo! pooling when I realised my computer actually allowed me. Clearing my two IKEA boxes. I abhorred clearing but it has to be done. I went back alot, silly scribbles, written convos yet again that reads 'CONFIDENTIAL' and 'BURN AFTER USE'. Haha. How naff. I was reminded yet again of the disappointments I went through the past year and the recent (how can 0/35 be NOT disappointing is beyond me). Math, ironically was my lousiest last year. And to think I love that. I threw away the many practice papers and unhanded-in tutorials and the last minute IHAVETOCOPYFROMYOU scrawls on the Economics notebook. HA or even (my favourite) those History quizes in the lecture theatre where I scored meagrely (and this was with the effort of craning my neck to see Charlene's answers).


Ohhoho.



Sya and Ida came by to borrow the ball and pray. Funny pair. (:
And ALWAYS hungry lol.


Gosh it's just 2230 hours and my eyes felt like elephants right now. I still have under my desk and the cupboards to clean. I even found secfour assessment books please! Don't ask why I keep them. I have this old old note that have "ili(heartshape)__" HOW ANNOYING. I shall refrain exposing the person's identity to avoid embarassment. HA.


Kev (aka angel since he) had arranged an interview for me next week and I PRAY SO HARD that I can get that job. And I thought of a poor jobless friend. And Kev's trying to secure an interview for her. Look how angels do their work. HAHA.

Tired. Elf and I share a common hate. ____ . No prizes for guessing. Seems that i have to avoid them after all. Elf! I love LOVE small things (wiggle's eyebrows).

Good night love, I've just gotten a 40 inch Maowang. Yay for me.

ofblack&white
10:02 PM

Merde. That's about described it.

I slipped like how Bambi on ice would. Figuratively.



Anyway for my sake of reading this ten years down the road, I had quite a day. I yawned too much, as wide as Moby Dick's (say wow now). Went to school and wanted to train but they did PT. Me? PT? Wait till Naz fly. The poor souls did 2.4, interval runnings. HwaChong came down for a match with the guys and they LOST 2-1. I spot a hotbod from afar. Handsome please!

Mun was lying down so I jumped over her.
"The cow jumped over the moon." Get it? HAHA.


A short game was all we're allowed before our stomach caved in and got occupied by worms (ok I'm kidding). Parkway Banquet again please. Then we pooled. What's new. My life seemed to mould into something useless and brainless yet fun. I hope Life would be like a plasticine I could shape in my own hands forever.


Songs! I really want Panther Fire. Anyway elf (I'll call you that still ok), must not worry too much about Life. If you breakdown this year, what more next year? It'll be tougher but CHIN UP! (:


I think. That's all I do. I think and contemplate and think again. But I don't DO anything. I'm hopeless. =.- Save me.

ofblack&white
9:38 PM

Wow. (:


I was treated BK for lunch today, happiness of course. And made a racket at the Giant, singing songs bothering strangers. Being random is a great occupation. I couldn't find an umbrella. I want a pretty one please, so I can use it proudly. HA. I want to embarras her.


Tired was a mere understatement. I was up till two early morning and was up by 6.45. Didn't really manage to catch a wink, much less forty, and I had to nap if I don't want to collapse later.


Coral Secondary's Lets Get Loud2 was good. (: Their school band was of ok quality I guess. I'm quite a concertband enthusiast but I rarely see them play LIVE (like usually through the two little white plastics called EARPHONES). Nice. I want to find the song Showdown For Band and Panther Fire but googling it didn't prove to be fruitful. AH. But the Taman Petaling Band (some girl's school from Malaysia) was a WOW. Gave me goosebumps with their songs please. LOUD. They've the OOMPH. Probably can crack icebergs and kill many penguins.


And there's so many encores (like 3??) that Nadz was moaning.



If I had known the JC bandfest was today I'd go for it haha but common sense prevailed and I didn't. Good thing too. It was the first time I saw Nushrah in her band uniform and she looks SOOO pretty and cute. (: Little flautist.


Anyway I wonder how I'm suppose to be up by 6 again tomorrow.

How seamless seemed love and then come trouble. Good night and d e to x!

ofblack&white
11:34 PM

So the woman says. I'm feeling exceptionally maudlin tonight, talking to angels, whispering to them about doubts of Past, worries of Present. Somehow they lifted my burdens, even if it was short-term.
He can be so so sweet and comforting when he wants to.
Three cheers for Huang Jieyan ((:


But a word, so soft and gentle. Makes it easier to bear.

ofblack&white
1:18 AM

What a start of the morning. It was freezing penguins though it did not rain. Hurrah. Someone must have sang the anti-rain song ten times over. Torturous to get under the showers please. Blk 51 Chai Chee street residents, sorry for the scream at 0715 hours today.


Soccer in the crisp morning do wonders to you. It spelled FUN (in caps and bold and underlined please). Mr Lee is really a skilled player, Mr Tan too. I hadn't thought it would be fun playing with two full grown (not to mention smart) men. (: I had great shots and scored some, and of course it wouldn't be complete if I had not execute dumb moves (like jumping in front of Huda for the fun of it and screaming, or stopping the ball with my tummy many times and said YAY).


The teachers were nice to treat. I'll be coming on Friday probably, to time the little rodents and see them suffer the 2.4. HAHA. Eat that!


So four of us wanted to pool after, but the placed closed down (trust Bedok to close down all the NICE places can) so they came over to (supposedly) do study but we ended up eating cup noodles, drinking bubble tea and watching silent movies. The dvd glitched as if a DJ spins on the turntable. One point where there's only subtitles, sound, and no picture. Sometimes, there's subs, picture, no sound. Sounds like mix&match from MiniToons eh? LOL. But it's a great watch.


I cleared the refrigerator. Soon, the fridge will be able to create and dispense ice and at least keep the ice-cream frozen.


Many things to do. (: I'm having major d e to x session now. Must. Forget.


At least I tried. (: And the elf was happy with *ehemehemcoughcough*.
Sleep and dream of monsters that bit you till you die. (:

ofblack&white
8:22 PM

Ouch. I think I've been painfully obvious. OH SHITZ.

Anyway the Sky seemed to have the capacity of the sea, for it poured and poured and still poured. I was wondering maybe She cried for a loss. Who knows? It rained boys&girls, puppies with white collar and all. I'd rather wish myself to be in Sahara, where it shines 24/7. That was even if we were to sweat in the heat, at least there's the fan or airconditioner.
Maybe not. Dubai sounds better.

Whatever.


I met Keng today. Lovelove! (: Pooled and lunch-ed and ICE CREAMED in this weather. Keng suddenly had this urge for ice-cream in the blizzard, who knows? Met Elke and Tara whilst we're on the way. Embarassingly gotten trashed by Elke please, she seemed to be playing pool since she's still in the womb.


I'm slowly falling out. It should be good news! Yes! (the elf will shake hre head and say not again) HAHA.

Oh and another random thing (I swear someone's killing me for this)
BREAST OF STEEL.

Wireless kind of (actually, really) suck alot. I do not know what being possessed my dad to change it (maybe my brother's psychotic powers) but it really suck eggs. Where's my normal broadband dialthingy! I miss math, not you.

I need money to drop off the sky, like NOW.

ofblack&white
9:31 PM

An assed-out weekend. I'm tired! It was quite fun while it lasted.
Mission burn-the-parents-plastic: ACCOMPLISHED.


It's more of food trip yet again. Anyway I've gotten myself Kickers leather slip-ons (I didn't know they don't come as cheap as I thought. BURN PLASTIC), and quite a number of new threads. I think the mother was thankful I never splurged on a new wallet. And I think she got scared when I eyed a watch. Yay. All to scare the parents.


Anyway all is good, since the soccer thing was postponed till Wednesday. Somehow I wouldn't be surprised it'll be postpone till next week, next month, next year, whatev. Typical of teachers to do so. Ho well.


I had a great gastronomic experience in KL. We dined at some classy Middle-Eastern called Tarbush for Sunday night. Had Japanese the afternoon before. AND pasta the night before. The morning was... ohmygod. Heaviest breakfast ever for me. Buffet was crazy, for I ate like a cow (with capital letters). Had like 5-6 full plates? HAHA PIG-ALERT.


Walking around Bukit Bintang, ending up at the Starhill Mall which linked Marriott and Ritz. IT WAS SNOWING INDOORS I SWEAR. So interesting please, little machines dispensing snow from way above (not styrofoam, ICE). Talk about lavish. The ground floor decor for Starhill was superb. Chic classy whatever words. Ritz was as marvellous and grand looking. No if you're wondering, I'm not rich enough for that place. Settled for Dorsett, which was nearly as good. The toilet was up to my taste please. Though at one point I was totally freaked out by Godknowswhat.


Ah. I have gained kilopounds during this trip and there's something that I've to do about it. HELP.

Tomorrow is pool day with Keng.

Haha and throughout my trip? I was thinking how nice it would be if you were here, haha snapping photos as we stopped whenever we like on the North-South. Taking the wispy fog floating off from the forests, or the silly adverts littered along the North-South. Or maybe just the clear blue sky! Or visit KLCC and just be random as always! How fun.

Sounds incredibly emo and naff though. HAHA
Good night! (:

ofblack&white
11:47 PM

Ah well. I suppose I'd post up whatever I want to before tomorrow comes. Not that I do not enjoy sprees in my favourite city, it's just that I don't want to spend three days there, when I already planned to join them for street. AH SPOILER.



I don't know which hotel we'll be in now, since my dad's membership at Prince expired. I enjoyed that place, really. It's cosy. And the view's nothing short of fantastic (since we managed to clinch 15 storeys or above everytime). I pray that I'll enjoy while it last. And I declare my evil intentions of burning my parents' plastic faster than the bushfires in Aussie. Die. HAHA.


Hmm. A sweet thing called me past Tuesday I remembered, and I planned to have a sleepover! NAZ MAKE YOURSELF AVAILABLE ON THE 28TH. Then the three of us can try a hand in cooking (got to teach Mayyee to fry the egg man) and baking (musn't use the cooking oil...). Haha I hope the plan solidify itself, so we'll have funfun.


I just finished watching The Art Of Seduction and it is really comical. And the man's quite a catch. Oh. Just now I went back school for a while to looklook then we went Parkway for LUNCH! Anna and Mun joined us and I had my favourite. Stupid HUDA (see I didn't call you elf anymore) said I ate like I haven't ate for one week. Then pool-ed with Anna. I slept like a big rice sack to Tampines on 31 to meet Nush. Since she exceeded the time limit I went of grandma's. HAHA.

SWITCH ON THE PHONE NEXT TIME CAN.


I miss you, maybe I'll be able to glimpse you next week. Yay (:

GOOD NIGHT.

ofblack&white
10:09 PM

Today is the day that marks the start of NIKE WAREHOUSE SALE but most importantly, a dear dear friend the kindest soul yet the bitchiest (after Syahril of course) male I've met got enlisted today. I am not familiar with the word, CHANGE. To not see him online would be almost blaphemous, for the Rule in the Book says "Thou (Hamzah) shalt always be Online." I do not know, there goes the person who has been listening to me for the past two years. And has been entertaining me with all his weirdness (which is not all bad!). I feel sort of bad since I don't feel that I've given him anything back.



After I read his blog, I don't know to cry at his sweetness, or to laugh at the hystericals about me.


"Well firstly lets talk Ili, or rather ili, the one with the symmetrical name. yes yes this high maintenance, soccer loving unpredictable not a girl not yet a women. Its rather hard to describe a character like hers, honestly though I really treasure her as a friend, im quite afraid of her. Maybe its because I care that I cant stand to be the cause of anything negative. Nevertheless she has been a listening ear I cannot do without, the source of many laughs and the company so unique I know no one that can ever replace her. Other than that she is quite hot and her brightly coloured bra’s not only decorates her chest but makes my school life colourful as well. =P"




Well said mate.


Anyway I think it'll be only three weeks that he will chance upon this entry. I'll make it known to him. WHAT "NOT A GIRL NOT YET A WOMAN"?! You're asking for a slap. He's the ONLY male to be able to stare me in the eye, right in the eye as if trying to propose, and say solemnly "Ili, that's a nice bright orange you're wearing."

(: Although the first time I see you, I thought you were downright weird (this doesn't change still)! He brought (and still does) smiles to my life with his smartness and sarcasm and his ability to talk SO fast I can barely catch a word! Or the fact that he sleeps in class and could still recite whatever Ms Koh wanted him to. (: I'll miss your presence dear (his love for endearments are rather catching).

It's ok! Three weeks and I hope you come out a MAN. And lots of stories please. Many hugs to youu.

ofblack&white
7:04 PM

God talk about being a pig. Not sleeping enough for the past days led me to zonking out at 2230hrs and getting up at 1130. Talk about power sleep. HAHA I bet Mima can do it longer.


I'm broke, and I can't go out this week. Save me. And it feels like it's going to rain today. Hooha. At least it's cold. I got a book to read, finally to save me from dying. But I realised the duedate's today. DAMN.


Have a good day everyone! Mazni's going to TPJ. YAY.

ofblack&white
11:43 AM

It's painfully lonely at home. I don't know why. Maybe the stillness of everything made it tough, for the only sound that occupied the room is the clickclick of the keyboard (my mouse does not even make a sound). Songs do not appeal to me. And I get awfully bored easily.


I don't know. There's the sudden emptiness inside that made me uninterested in everything else yet bored beyond my wildest dreams. Maybe I'm just spoilt.


So the chalet ended today. I had a blast! Maybe since I've had company for the past three days, being alone suddenly squeezed the loneliness and boredom. Alot of laughs, screams, sweat and such. Slow walks by the beach, frenzies in the street court, SEA Games-styled badminton. Exhausting! But worth it. I especially love street in the rain, when the court seemed like Aceh after the tsunami (no pun intended). The ball just stalled instead of rolling when it passed the flooded area. Everyone drenched. I think this was better than last year's. Although lesser people around, we definitely had them louder (think Anna and Mun and you'll understand). Everyone's fairly civilised with each other, no stupid politiks. It felt somewhat... cosier since most are those I'm close to, so the rapport's there. Hmm, not much turned up though, but I'm fine. HAHA what they missed is not my problem.

So I had: Cara teaching me mahjong-but-I-still-don't-get-it; Huda limping like a dumb rag doll when we played badminton; Muni trying to get me emo and made me cry (wail HAHA); trashed Sya in almost every game possible; Kat to walk with me on the beach only to be (nearly) chased by dogs; Zhong as a partner in Metal Slug (which i beat her in points. Applause for me please); stepped on Anna's bare toes HARD with my Free; sing the Onthefirstdayofchristmas song with Cj; Esther hooked on Burnout; been dragged by Mima to see the already-risen sun in the morning; believed when Muni said Nurul disappeared (-.-). AND Mr Poh played like a kid, with Mrs Poh slightly resigned with her peterpan-complexed husband.


Now, I don't know if I should join the Ones for training since I'm really out of school and just busybodying around. Haha I'm sure some might be glad I'm not joining them!


AAHH. I think this boredom calls for a job to distract the mind. Where's education and academia when you NEED them.



Hai. Ham is nice and send me this. CLICK if you're an animal lover. I swear this will get you swooning. Elf. CALL ME.

Good night. (:

ofblack&white
8:55 PM

HEY. Tiring day it is, was out of the House from eight till tennish. Johor! Been long since I've been there. Anyway its kenduri for my aunt's mom who's going to perform the Haj this coming. Alhamdulillah for her. (:


I did bonkers-nothing today. Sit around, medle with cards. Bluff-ed, stress-ed, whatever you can possibly do with cards. Fried chicken wings that made me fly. Really nice over at Uncle Kamal's.


OH. The Newpaper seemed to be gracious and posted up the photo I sent to them a week back. Niceness, I love it so. I was practically shoving the pikture up my relatives' noses; the Team I am proud of.


Hmm. I waited, and I never saw your name appear on the screen. Why so? I decided to give up and run away.

ofblack&white
10:43 PM

Something interesting to read up. BBC can come up with interesting stories too.

CLICK!
Trust Hamzah to read up these stuff at this hour.

HAHA. I hope no Indian men will read that lest they want some ego-busting. The elf's friend Zarifah asked some interesting questions. Peculiar, how I was thinking about it just now too. And the thought revolts me!! HAHA.


I see my diary on a newstand.

ofblack&white
11:21 PM

Haha. Fat hope.


Anyway it has indeed been the most laziest day of the week, doing absolut nothing. Russian poker-ed by myself, and I have remarkable hands; four-of-a-kind, houses, many many houses. HA. The things people do when they get bored yet too lazy to do anything else. Was suppose to find a gift today, but lazy bones ay, they screamed and yelled and wailed.


Funny how I dreamt about one, and about another the next night. Must be thinking too much. Oh. Yesterday, my aunt baked the nicest scrumptious cheesecake powdered with oreos and topped with strawberries. Plus her pasta. SEAFOOD PLEASE. With CHEESE. If that does not make me happy, nothing else can.


I never know why you couldn't trust me with anything. What sins or misgivings I did to you, pray tell. Ah well. How often have I told myself, FAT hope. HAHA. Whatever lah. Lose. Loser=Ili. That's one equation Mathematics failed to derive.


First thing tomorrow would be Johor, for open house. Stuffing my face yet again. HAHA. How can I be more invisible to you when there's more of me right now?

"Lies, tales of the Devil inside, written in Holy disguise."

ofblack&white
7:25 PM

I reached home about twenty minutes back from a world of cheesecake, pasta, fried chicken, lemonade, and other junks. Happy Birthday to Yasmin! My God, with their passing age, I feel much older. I hate the Other Side who kept digging into me and making snide remarks. I so wanted to retort but common sense and courtesy prevails. Yay. Sigapore's Lion (courtesy) campaign years back worked after all.





How? Haha. I already told you that I miss you. The ball's in your court, and I've done what I could. Your turn!

Actually, I'm just losing anyhow. ) :

ofblack&white
12:56 AM

I'm feeling as lazy as a goat. Roaming around and eat grass (face it, I'm too lazy to even MOVE to eat). Hmm I'm still waiting for Aunty Asimah to call and pick me up so I can type. Ironic how I promised not to touch another Malay academia due to unsightly results, and here I am preparing Malay worksheets for little niners. Oh well.


I've been out and about this week I so feel like collapsing on bed and never move. Have someone to feed me, turn the page for me, message for me. HAHA. I am getting unbearably lazy it's painful to even watch myself.


I just feel like scribbling nonsensical nothings, since I can at least squeeze whatever creative literary juices I've left. It has been so sunny so far, I'd want to smack the Sun. Just as Michlai messaged; "Why is it so sunny when we decided not to go out?!" (as I type this a gust whistled past). I smell rain now actually.


I don't know what to watch. The prospect of starting a new series does not entice me as I expected it to. I don't know, it could be tedious to keep track of whogotwhatillnesswho'sgoingtodie and stuff. HAHA. I really have no idea what to type!


Oh YES. The Dream. I dreamt of someone last night. Was quite ridiculous, but real. I don't know, it got me wondering why I let go. Sorry elf. =/


Your name, you carved it everywhere.


I can't wait for chalet; soccer, cycling, eating, whatever else! I'm just desperate to be away from home. It'll be better if the Dad is in Singapore when I go for chalet. I love the contented feeling of not being around when he is. HA. Some people just annoy me badly.

Ok. I think Aunty Asimah will call next century. Meanwhile! Let me think of ways for me to open my palm so I could grab hold of something else.

Enjoy your day! (:

ofblack&white
1:54 PM

Rain! So spoil can. So Michlai Ham and me went Macs for shelter, then ended up at Parkway walking and chatting like no tomorrow of course. I pooled a coupla hours with Mima- eightball, nineball - using a nine feet. Rarely used that, since it's bit too big. And most often I had to use the extension. Anyway it revived the extinct pool-is-so-fun-I-can-stay-till-tomorrow feeling. AAHH.
It's been a while since I've played it for hours.



There's the stall in Bedok where the queue probably snaked its way to Johor. Unbearably long, I never know why till today. The mee rebus was to die for. Zhong came to pay the money, and that ass gave me 5 dollars in coins. Got me cursing please, so heavy. NTUC for a while, gotten a replacement for the sorry excuse of a handphone pouch. Black and orange. Matches! The library can freeze penguins. Waited for a while to get something and he walked me the long way to the bus stop. So gentlemanly, thank you for the blacks (:


I don't know. I do not like it when you buy me things, because it got me guilty. Since I can't return the feelings anyway.



I want to buy Beyonce's lastest. I love her vocals. Tired. good evening all (:

ofblack&white
6:44 PM

TIRED.

What a day. It seemed to stretch long. I woke to a phone call and rushed to meet my mom. She picked me and him up and we went to hit EXPO's John Little Mega Sale. I bought alot of... essentials the elf should know. HAHA and a small leather bag too. With his bright idea I took the two big Byford posters (one with a guy in briefs ONLY and the other in boxers and singlet) and sent to the elf, asking if she needed any undergarments. LOL. We walked about, leaving mom to her shopping frenzy. Funny! To find her, just locate where's the Hourly Special was held. She'll be there. I got two bedsheets too, nice strippy ones. He only got socks and a sweater and shirt. While my mom still went on for round 2 of shopping (gotten us nice brown heels and towels), we sat somewhere and played Poker. He taught me Russian poker. Nice (:



We had BK before the spree, obviously we'll get as famished as cows. Went Siglap Gelare. There was a Starbucks next to it, I went and manage to secrue an interview for a job. Pray hard I will get it. (: I finished a whole waffle can. So pig. Mom ate a bit of mine, and the animal ate two. So many lah. I'm surprised my buttons didn't burst. We sat and chat and upped to East Coast bowling alley.


I pwned the game please. I had four strikes and three spares in a game, 147 can. Second game was 106. Funfun. I think he's ego was deflated like a balloon. Poor him. It's ok. We can't be good in everything (:


And here I am. I think the shopping was what made everything to die for. It's going to be a tight day tomorrow. Pray I don't suffocate.


Good night love. (:

ofblack&white
9:08 PM

I had quite a blast with my elf yesterday. Who couldn't walk properly due to some... aching problems at the um... butt. Sorry ah you said to not put up but it's too funny to see you walking in a very funny way, moaning as if you were having sex, then laughing at yourself. Not weird meh? I find it amusing. To top it off the elf lay down in the library as if it's her house. HAHA.

Cycling was a fun affair. I couldn't sit properly after the cycling trip. Halfway cycling I made us stop, ran to beach (baywatch style LOL) and jumped into the sea. Huda was quite shocked I suppose, to see me walk back dripping and grinning like an idiot. For the distance we stopped quite a few times (to retrieve me shoe that had fallen when I hung it on the brakes) and to take pretty snapshots of trees and nature. Much conversation on "what ifs..." and "if only I'm here with (inserts respective names)." Ah well. (: We can't have it all. Remember:
Stick to one or you have NONE. Should scream that to Sya everytime.

Had late lunch at MP Banquet, my favourite TomYam Ban Mian. She had chicken rice. Then we, rather I, hit the arcade. Only played two dollars worth. Managed to get me a game on Time Crisis 4. The TimeZone changed alot. Sad that StrikersII and BishiBashi isn't around anymore. I died within record time please, but it was fun while it lasted. (: Must play again.


What's today's agenda? Shopping at John Little's with the Momma. She asked if I want more Nike shoes. Whatthehell question is that?! Of course! Need more clothes. Bags? Haha later Michlai make more noise. What else, accessories. And I swear I want Gelare today. it's halfprice even, so I'll bring Mom eat. (: Then can burn it off in the next cycling trip with Naz Michlai and Ham. Yay.

Days are so packed I could hardly breathe. I get shades darker yet again due to yesterday and it's a wonder if you can see me by next week.

Good and wonderful and merry day people!

ofblack&white
10:23 AM

After much nagging and whining from people I finally changed the layout. It'll take time to adjust, for I am familiar with the blue and white. We'll see. Please comment on this.

At most I'll just revert to my favourite old blueandwhite. Got to go off soon. The day is cloudy. I hope it gets better. (:

ofblack&white
8:30 AM

It has been a sourcream&onion day, infront of the com playing dvds the whole day long and lazing on the bed like a whaaale. Lazy day, is today. Rather worned by barbecue-ing the night at CostaSands, while talking to the honey for 2 hours straight (what's with your "Huh. Oh I forgot what to say" which drove me nuts) about redundant nothings. Oh well. Your bill, not mine. (: Conspiration going about, silly relatives asking of my whereabouts when I 'disappeared' and whisperings of 'EH Boyfriend EH!' made me want to slap them silly. I should let them glimpse of the person I talk to, definitely will crack them up. No offence lah k.



Bit down yesterday, after going ons in the household. The sonofabitch disallowed me of my passion for sports, and has the fucking nerve to expect me to be nice to him. HAHA. Men. Such fags they make. No prizes for guessing who.



Tomorrow shall be an active day, not lazing about like a Naz (pig). We'll go East Coast and I'll tell you all about the wonders of STATS. HAHA. My elf wants to go kbox and I coul curse you! (If I already haven't). We shall go a-cycling maybe, and I can kick her until she fly. Good time for me to get burnt. Take action, LegolasofPunggol says. HAHA. I don't want. I love the status quo. And I want to go to the beach with the package! Especially the Naz who needs some infinite cheering up. Throw in the Blue one and the Nerd and the Bitchiness and it'll be fun. We can scream at the beach (and hope no dogs barked at us) and go wild and merry!




I need tables to vandalise, like RIGHT NOW. Maybe I should order from IKEA and have a table full of scribbles. My desk is full of it, my name, lyrics, poems, numbers. Hahayhee. If the world is vandalised, we'll know who's the culprit.


Strangely cheerful in the night. have to be sourcream&onion. I'll carry on with the night happily ever after. Wan an! ((:

ofblack&white
8:46 PM

I can only give you love that lasts forever. And a promise to be near each time you call. And the only heart I own, for you and you alone.


That's all.

ofblack&white
12:35 AM

Happenings in two days. Soccer! I've been playing alot my legs seemed to be giving way soon. Today was nice.


Too sleepy to blog suddenly haha. I want to watch some dvds and maybe hit the sack for an hour or two before barbecue. (:


Nice and easy does it everytime.

ofblack&white
3:40 PM